*i dunno how to start ><*

hmm, been a good gal since young, thats wad everyone says. life was perfect for me (to me la). okay except getting lost in e neighbourhood when i was 5 n a kind soul sent me home, and losing my brother when i was 5 or 6. i got nice clothes, good friends, church and food. (HAHA.)

everything i need, i have. so, ya. 1st 9 years of my life was like tt.


then when i had to move all e way to Alexandra cos my mum's got a job which provides accommodation, i labelled the year 1999 e best year of my life (so far) cos i had to leave my then-friends for another place where who knows what will happen.

year 2000 helped me learn a lot. not in terms of friendship n stuff, but i learnt about which bus goes where, where to take the MRT, where to alight when gg to school n stuff. haha, unexpected yea, tt's why i noe quite a bit abt e west ok, even though i live in e east. hehe.


year 2000 was the year when my results were the worst in the 4 yrs of pri school. i got my first 60+ and got whacked hard on the butt. the next year i moved back, my mum quit. put quite a lot of effort for me to go back to my previous pri school. and of cos i got in again. thank God.


i still rmb all e shocked faces i saw on my first day of pri 5.

'Joyce! why u come back?!' haha. i'll nv forget those people's faces.

then my results cont to decline. i dunno why, maybe i was complacent, i tot i could get e same grades like before. then pri 6 came n i pia-ed n stuff and thank God i got 225 and could go to HSCS.

then was sec school. my worst 4 years, e 4 years when i matured a lot (everyone else did too.).

then i got all e bad stuff tt i could possibly imagine n i graduated, lonely and relieved and happy. (Not to forget i met the best people ever, who stood by me when i was angry or emo. thx Jiayi n Natasha n JiaHui!)

then slacked the slackiest and longest time ever, and cont on poly. i matured even more (i think) made good friends (thank God).

i started to like shopping, i started to like a particular singer or band, started to like the com more than the TV, i started to ignore my brother (did i?), i started to yell at my parents, i started to regret over some stuff i did.


and now, i'm 18. (okay la, 17 years and 359 days old.)


there are stuff tt i lost tt i want back. lots of em.

that friend who 绝交-ed with me just because i wouldn't lend her my pen,

that adorable boy who became what we never expected of him，

that close bond between cousins,

v this is wad i miss from all of us. everyone smiling, no one at e com, no one at e TV.


that song that i spent days searching for it and accidentally deleted it tgt with other songs,

that passion for durians, which i used to fight for with my deceased granny,

oh, my granny.




i wanted stuff tt i couldnt have now too.

a job which i like (minus all the office politics. they irks me.)

a 2 month trip to taiwan. all parts of it. (*dream.*)





a dressing table. (before that, i need space for it. =/)

a decent wardrobe of clothes

a ton of those CDs that i want to buy. i'm feeling bad fr all tt downloading..

a wee-oo-weep look. HAHA.





okay enough of crap. aft all these i rethought my life, thanked God for stuff tt happened, but shouldnt have if He did not help, thought of people who came and left.



and now i've got a headache. ><


这算是这十多年来的一个总结吧。



Praise the Lord for my existence.



the end. =)

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