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i hate tis feeling, although i predicted it. it NEVER felt so bad.


~fail FCE quiz cos of careless mistake
~freak out in land surveying prac test
~last in class (or to make things worse, e whole course) for my 1st math quiz, although i passed
~i still dun understand my land surveying, fce's ok.
~and i'm SICK.



seems tt my days have been bad. VERY BAD indeed.





i cant help but think, wad have i been doing???? how come i cant work hard n get wad i deserve? in lower pri tis wasnt e case. i dun even NEED 2 study for my tests. since p4 my results have been average, or BELOW average.

classic example: exams last sem. i was studying lk hell, n i din get ANY As, only 1 B, many Cs and 1 D. i dunno wad caused tis, but i promise i was really studying then.

i cant help too but think, 'i'm e STUPIDEST in class.' i used to think tt there are ppl who i can definitely defeat in terms of academic results. NO i was wrong. my GPA was e lousiest among EVERYONE i noe. heh. i was too proud.

perhaps God was trying to make me see my pridefulness. yea man God, well done.







i really dunno wad to do now, studies is my major prob. i seem to heeheehaha all day long, but hey, i'm human too. tried very hard to not surf net while doing MOL, or do my tutorials, or even ask the teachers on my doubts. i always thought i'll have another chance to do so. and i am so wrong. chances can be given many times but some just drift away w/o u noticing.




ever sice tis sem started i'm starting to feel more n more inferior. no matter physically, academically, socially, mentally, i dun think there's anywhere i'm good at actually. i was very confident of myself but now its time to be humble.






very emo these days. only when i'm alone.




on e mrt is the time these days when i LOVE the most. i blast music in my ears and sleep and mouth e words of my fave songs. i just float away from reality for 45 mins and when i hear 'next stop, tampines.' i noe, reality is back.


trying very hard to not think so much. STILL trying.